In A lOsS oF wHaT tO dO

Well,hello people.
Can any of u tell me what to do?I seem to be in a loss now.Ever since just now.Well,1st thing 1st,my results.All passed.Except for Geog,E8 and Art,E8.I was semangat(enthu)to pass for some reasons.When i got my results,it was well..shocking 4 me.it was the 1st time i passed all my subjects except 4 2.It was due to some things or some1 i should say.Well,maybe i need to thank tat person 4 giving me happiness in my life and made me wanna pass.Thanks:)
Now,i feel like the whole world has come crashing down and that there is no more happiness,no hyper,no enthu.I wanna be quiet these few days.And if i opened my mouth or laughed,something is not right and tat i will cry.I would rather cry in my heart than cry out loud.At least if i cry in my heart,no1 will know except for me and my heart.Well,i dun wanna be remembered of the event and the unhappiness.The feeling shucks.It is simply unbearable.Having shared everything with him,now nobody to share it with.The feeling of losing him shucks!It can stick to my heart 4ever.i din expect it to end so soon.It has just started.It is hard to 4get.Though i may be happy in skul,but i m just putting on a brave front.
Inside it simply feels like bursting out to tears anytime.But it is not the right time to burst yet.I can still bottle it up.Still can..When cannot ready,tats it..Anything can happen..
Oh my,can any1 tell me wat to do?I simply miss him and his laughter lots.But wat to do?Like tat lor..I realli feel like shutting down now for awhile.So maybe i will update in a few weeks till o am betta.tats all for today.
Nitez.
Shutting down,crying and sad girl:(